They say you are actually three people...the person you see yourself as, the person others see you as, and the person you really are.....this is a post I have thought about writing for awhile, but when I would start I just wouldn't finish....so I ask myself why?! I think deep down the reason is because when I look in the mirror, I don't like the person looking back at me. I see an overweight, self conscience, shy girl. I hold back and don't always do everything I want to because I am embarrassed of what I look like.
I wish I had a dollar for every time someone told me I was beautiful, because maybe I wouldn't need a second job haha. I wish just once I could see what they see. No one goes out of their way to compliment you if they don't really mean it, so why is it so hard for us to accept compliments! It's really hard to believe what others say when you have such a negative self image. Don't get me wrong, there are things I love about myself, but one of the hardest parts of this journey is learning to be confident in my own skin. It's not easy. I have put some weight back on, which I know I will get off, but I don't feel comfortable.
What do you hope others see when they look at you?! Strive to be that person! I hope others see me as a driven, passionate, kind, and beautiful person. At least that's the person I strive to be. If I can put a smile on just one persons face everyday, then I say that's a successful day!
Lately, I have been a bundle of stress and an emotional wreck. Life has been crazy lately, especially in my career department, but I am so grateful for all of my family and friends who have been there for me these past few weeks!
I think part of this journey has really been finding the person I really am. I started all of this because I didn't like the person I had become. Lately, I have to remind myself of my goals, but we all need that little reminder right?!
I may not know the person I am yet, or the person you see me as, but I do know that each and every day I strive to be a better person than I was yesterday! I know that I am not going to let my weight, or my self image define who I am. Life is a journey, our experiences along the way, and the decisions we make, define who we are! I know that I am going to keep that in mind, and push harder every day to reach my goals, and become the best person I can be!
XOXO
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