I know it's been way to long! Why is that.....well the truth is that my heart hasn't been in it. I lost sight of my goals, and I fell on my face. I have been mad at myself for about a month now. I have no one to blame but myself. I have been avoiding the scale because I knew the number would upset me. I know that I have gained weight. Why, well because I didn't give it my all and I have been eating like crap! It's my fault! I gave in. I let my stress eating get the best of me.
The moment we loose focus, the darkness sets in. It's a struggle! I knew this wouldn't be easy. But it's time to get my head back in the game!!! Monday I took my measurements and jumped on the scale once again. I have only gained about 10 pounds, and to be honest, I thought I gained a lot more. My pants are snug and I hate it.
The past two days I have been giving it my all! I am eating clean, drinking shakeology, and working out. I am happy to say that I have lost about 3 pounds since Monday. This is just the start.....I have regained focus and I am ready to kick some butt.
I have felt like a failure. I have not been the best coach, friend, or inspiration. Why?! I got caught up in focusing on the negatives. I have been going on job interviews and hearing nothing, or rejections....that alone makes me feel like I am not good enough. I have gained weight and lost sight of what I have been working so hard for, I failed myself.
I have come to realize that we choose our own attitudes. We are so quick to blame others for what we are feeling, but the truth of the matter is, we choose to feel that way. Yesterday, I was miserable! It was no ones fault but my own. In fact, many people tried to cheer me up and I just choose to ignore it. I am blessed to have so many people in my life that support me.
This week I made the decision to get my head straight and pick myself up and start again. It's ok to fail. What's most important is to realize when you are losing focus and do whatever you have to do to get back on track and work towards your goals!
I'm back baby and ready to kick these goals in the ass!
XOXO
"A bad attitude is like a flat tire. If you don't change it, you will never go anywhere."
The Bulky Bitch
